You’d think I would have learned by now.
Back about six months ago I took a very minimal part time freelance admin job that I knew wasn’t right for me, and I knew wasn’t the best use of my energy and time. I did it because I wanted the extra income stream, and (a scared) part of me thought it would be a good idea to keep at least one toe in the more conventional job market.
I resigned yesterday.
I wasted a lot of energy on that small job, not enjoying what I was doing, being mad at myself for taking the job when my gut told me not to, and feeling bad about not giving my all to the organization. I felt like a jerk quitting, and completely tied myself in knots and over-dramatized the situation, when it wasn’t a big deal at all, for me or for the employer.
So I think I finally learned my lesson.
First of all, I embrace the fact that I am no longer employable in the traditional 9 to 5 sense. There was a reason why I left that life, and it is fantasy to think that suddenly I can thrive and succeed there now.
Second of all, I know that if I focus my heart and soul and grit on what I am passionate about, my business will grow and the money will flow.
This morning I asked my cards what lesson I was meant to learn from all this, and no word of a lie, these are the cards I drew:
Page of Wands and Nine of Pentacles
In a nutshell: there I am, as that Page of Wands, full of fire, passion and determination, ready to FULLY embark on my entrepreneurial adventure. I know I have a long road ahead, but it is one of excitement, joy and discovery.
See how the Page is looking towards, even gesturing towards or hailing the second card, the Nine of Pentacles.
This tells me that the long road ahead will ultimately take me to the Nine of Pentacles, to abundance and financial independence, to a time when I can enjoy the life I have created. (That Nine of Pentacles is the card I actively chose for myself to represent what I intend to manifest in 2017, see the post here.)
Ideally, if you are in a position where you need to make a sound career decision, you would consult the cards first, and factor in what they tell you when you are deliberating. But, if you don’t have the time or confidence to do this, asking the cards about the lesson that a challenging or uncomfortable situation has to offer after the fact can be illuminating and provide a sense of closure and perspective.
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